The Fate of the World

Lies in the hands of our children and the traditions we pass to them. I started my very first garden this year, and with the over enthusiastic help of my children, started seedlings 2 weeks ago. They were ready to go into the ground but not before one more tilling (by hand) and a round of Starbucks coffee grounds got mixed in. What an exciting experiment in horticulture for my children. To be able to really enjoy the fruits of our labors when harvest is here.

Thank you Starbucks for giving to those of us who are doing our best to give back to the Earth.

I love this song! Killer-esque!

"1. Sweet Troubled Soul - Stellastarr"

Grumble

Well - the last few days have been incredibly difficult for me, but I'm making it out alive... right?!

I've learned that God cannot hug us with His arms, but will send people to us, that can do the job for Him.

He still hears me, even when I complain about how things are. He knows I will eventually stop once I fall asleep, but He loves me anyway.

There is nothing that He doesn't understand. And yet, we have a hard time comprehending that.

Miracles still happen, I've seen too many to deny that. Just lucky enough to realize what they were when they were happening.

Peace is not a destination, it's an inner feeling and state of being and, if we have it for just a moment, it makes that sense, that joy much sweeter. Because without the suffering and affliction, how would we know joy or peace?

So to this onward, forward, upward journey I now find myself on, I pray for peace, courage, patience, understanding, and most of all a destination well met.

It was never meant to be easy, just worth it.

Well

Robbed... flat out. Our savings account in California had withdrawals done, with no explanation, no memo... and the best part is I get to wait until Monday to talk to someone. The replacement cards never made it to us... they got returned to the bank... and only one got activated. Sounds fishy to me.

I love my friends...
Love my family...

Love sleep too. Goodnight all

Whew!

Saved a Life *
Spent some money *
Drank my protien shake *
Cut hair *
Filled My Nails *
Dyed My Hair *
Pedicured my feet *
Blogged recently
Gone to bed at a decent hour

* denote things accomplished here today or within the last 24 hours.... LAME!

It died!

The washer died... It's dead. Toasted... Gone. Now, if I had my biggest wish at the moment, and yes, it is a repeating wish, the Electrolux washer that washes 25 pairs of jeans would show up at my front door, with a matching dryer. I could totally use a break from the dinky world of washers, and considering it would be the nicest hand-out I've gotten, I'd blog about it, seriously, every day for a year and let the world know how awesome it was. So you out there in blogland... let Electrolux know I'm interested in advertising/writing on my blog daily, and that I'm deserving... my mounds of laundry would thank them for ages to come, and I could likely be the best thing that happened since Kelly Rippa for their commercials... if you've seen my life - and the disasters my kids cause, I am A REAL WOMAN with REAL KIDS who REALLY destroy things...

Okay - enough of that soap box moment. Another thing, I went out and sprayed weed killer on the weeds in my backyard. I am prepping for my garden to get planted and hope to heaven that it works out well. I kill everything that doesn't have a beating heart... slowly - from neglect I suppose... but I'm really giving this an effort this year. Totally in. If nothing else, I would call it a success if I can get at least three pumpkins out of this and not have to buy any at Halloween!

Being a mom on a budget has not made this easy. There are so many things that are getting shoved around and misplaced because there is lack of funding. Though, I know now, with what I have in my garden, that at least we can eat the dead plants once I've killed them... Lord knows I will have given it my best... right?

Tomorrow morning is lunch with my girlfriends. Subway - first class dining all the way - and some AAA laughter. I so need this time with my friends. It will be a relief to have a break from the kids....

:0) Off to shower of the BBQ smell... and crawl into bed.

Happy Days...

Freedom

Today, when Jason arrived, I flew out the door to Freedom! I have been so overwhelmed with things here lately, that a short break of an hour and a half - without the babysitter fee - was soooo needed.

Faith's eye still looks terrible, and probably worse than Sunday's photo, but that's how black eyes are, they get terrible looking before they get better. She is a trooper though.

Today, I bought myself a bunny. A miniature something or another. Now I can't remember... but that's probably because it's UBER late for me, and I didn't sleep good last night thanks to BIZARRE dreams. Anyway - back to Miss Flower, she's an adorable fluffy bunny that's kind of calico colored. She does not Meow, Bark, Spray, or demand attention. She loves to be cuddled and held. This is not a dog or cat, and I am very happy to have an affectionate critter that doesn't speak. I'll get a picture of her tomorrow uploaded. She is adorable!

Other than that... life is rolling along. I applied for the Nursing program at NNU here in Nampa with hopes I can transfer some college credits and AP course credits to benefit my school requirements. We shall see, but I am dying to get back to school. I hope it goes well.

I need to go to bed.... hope you all are doing well. Here's to snow tomorrow!

Faith got in a fight...

with the McDonald's playland... she suffered a black eye and she looks terrible, but she's still cute.

what she looks like on an "I'm being cute" day

her black eye

Bleh

I am not so sure that I have a lot of great things to say. I cleaned my house for 7 hours last night... the twister sisters went to Oregon with Jason and Grace will go out with me today. Things to tend to before I go are far shorter than they were last night.

If you don't hear from me for a while... I am certain to be alive. My cell phone will be with me if you need to get ahold of me.

:)

“April Showers Bring May Flowers”

If it really is the season for change, new life, and new habits... My one wish would be able to afford all the Earth friendly products I love to have, but cannot afford.

Staples in my family like foods and drinks, I have an easy time rationalizing organic. But enviro-friendly detergents, soaps, and cleansers... sometimes it's a bit harder. Why? Mostly, in my opinion anyway, they have no revenue going out advertising how GOOD they are other than word of mouth. AND because it's mostly by word of mouth, I'm taking to my blog to share with you one of my favorite brands that's enviro friendly.

A brand called Seventh Generation, got it's name based on the Great Law of the Iroquois that states, "In our every deliberation, we must consider the impact of our decisions on the next seven generations." I used to have to drive 45 miles one way to a farmers market in Rancho Cucamonga - called Henry's - to get my Seventh Generation Lavander soap for dishes and my multi-purpose spray that was awesome for cutting the range hood grease. Frustrated by the long drive, I started requesting that Target bring in that brand whenever I filled out their online surveys, and before long, they too carried them and the mecca to the markey was not nearly as long anymore.

I wholeheartedly support preserving the Earth. I wish the movement and popularity started sooner, but we'll take what we can get. Please change your bulbs to compact flourescent energy star bulbs and perhaps petition like I have to instate community recycling programs with your current trash service. And maybe, pass on the beans as we know that flatulent cows are reducing the ozone, it's gotta be the same for humans farting, right?

Join my favorite doctor, Dr. Alan Greene, as he moves forward in a movement for our children, and our childrens children, to preserve this vast earth, to prevent illness, and to promote health and well-being for all. Visit www.drgreene.com and let them know you read about his efforts. If you have the chance, pick up the book "Raising Baby Green" by Dr. Greene - and you'll get to read my snippet in the book and get great parenting advice, great tips for helping your children's environment be friendlier, and other awesome cool things!

Give me some feedback as to what you do for your family, during spring-time cleaning and Earth Day that both fall in the month of April. Comments are always welcome!

Hello

So, today I went and attempted to clean house... It's getting there but I refuse to do any more. I am getting tired of sitting and sooo need a break out of this house, without kids in tow. :) I really, really, need out!

Anyway - I'm alive - hanging in there and hopefully will be well by tomorrow. This sinus pressure garbage makes me see double.

The Joy of Insomnia

So, if you don't know me by now... welcome to my world of late night - or rather, early morning posting. I'm alive and well, but not feeling safe. The sounds of my house settling are rather unsettling, and the wind and rain beating my windows and the sides of my house are un-nerving at best.

I have, however, discovered the joy in my Samsung Blu-Ray player. I live stream Netflix right to my box... and Pandora (internet radio stations) catered to me. Right now I've got my Pilot Speed (formerly Pilate) on the radio, and it takes me to a soothing, safe place. I think I will fall asleep listening to this stuff... it's all too good...

Sometimes, my mind is full of nonsense, that my logical self tries to figure out and re-work a bazillion times. Like, what about people from your past? What ever happens to them? Should I care? I think to an extent, but not at the level my brain is just overprocessing things lately. Deep inside me, I think there's a longing for closure. Just to know that someone is okay, happy, and that their life is existing without me. Then again, I'd love to know someone is miserable and made the worst decision ever leaving me, unfriending me, or letting me "get away." I suppose that when life is over, we will have the opportunity to look back and reflect on the many stupid, crazy, irresponsible things we have done with hopes that the good we have given to the world, the good we lived, will outweigh the lack of judgement and moments of weakness.

If I stood before my maker, and looked Him in the face, my biggest shame is an occasional foul mouth... with a close tie of reading gossip. Faults I am sure I can be forgiven of, or even outgrow here shortly. Shortcomings are only things we lean on because of other weakness. I suppose I lack the ability to think through everything I say before it leaves my lips. If I did, I would certainly be able to clean up my act. If I spent more time with my nose in a good book, instead of reading garbage online, I might learn something or enlighten my mind...

However, I do know....

This life is no joke. Handle with care, thought, and love.

We exist for a reason, for a purpose, for a season.

We are who we are, and who we are is who we are meant to be.

Namastae

lame!

I know, I'm so not into blogging right now because my life is in chaos right now, but that's the jist of what I'm dealing with.

You would be surprised to find that there was enough food stashed, crumbled and ground into the toyroom carpet that I could have single handedly saved Ethiopia from starvation for the next ten YEARS! It made me sick, but at least the room is clean now, and toy ready, ONLY.

The girls got their rooms put together tonight. Grace has the old Queen bed, and she fell asleep really fast tonight, thank you. The babies have their toddler beds in the same room with eachother... they can't bear to be alone. Me, my room is MINE! Hopefully I'll get the house out from under the category "catastrophic" and into "fall out zone"? I just can't imagine that things in my house could look much worse... then again, there's still tomorrow.

Today, I found myself feeling like I was a terrible friend. In reality, I'm a great friend. A really loyal friend. But usually my efforts get focused on one friend more than the other, but it doesn't mean I love anyone any less. I have some friends I hardly talk to, I have some I talk to all the time and never see, friends I knew for ages and don't talk to me, and then friends I have now who I love talking to. It's all the same to me though, a friend is a friend. They might outgrow me at a point, but it doesn't make the time we spent together or the memories we built any less valid.

Grace is going to go to pre-team gymnastics now. We'll see how she does. I hope that she can find a good sense of self and get motivation under her to do better all around. It's a big commitment but it's going to be worth it to me to see her do well at something.

Now that the bubonic plague is out of my house, I am happy to report that children are no longer clingy, and I am free to clean! WHOO! I know - sick of me to say that, but I really mean it!

All of you who have been hanging on for a post, I apologize. It's lame, but I will get better... now that sick kid days are gone for the season - I am back into full sarcastic-gut-busting humor phase.

Love you guys!